I know what you mean, Julie :) The key to that, I think, is to keep moving forward faithfully, and to remember that God is conforming us to the image of His Son, Christ Jesus.
God is good and I'm sure you feel so grateful also, that we have this website and can without cost study God's Word here. and congratulations on your milestone!
I see now that you joined this site two days ago. Welcome! If you're interested in joining a group, here is one which I think is good : https://learnscripture.net/groups/leaderboard-group-for-everyone/ It's a way to have a little bit of fellowship as you memorize God's Word. May God bless you as you study His Word.